2019 resolutions

"What are your goals for 2019?"
"What are your new year resolutions?"

These are the two questions that I've been asked repeatedly the past few weeks, and I'm sure many of you have been asked too.

It's not easy trying to think of something, to be honest. I haven't had any in years. So I was challenged to come up with something.

Took me a while, but I did come up with something for myself. I want to overcome my trauma, and fully recover from my anxiety attacks whenever I go to Braddell and Toa Payoh. To a lot of people, it might sound retarded. But it's a real and serious issue for me. My body reacts on it's own whenever I'm there. So I'm hoping it will one day get better in 2019. It's a stretch to be honest, but I want to try.

Of course, the logical follow up resolution after the previous one would be to heal completely. Many of you should know that I've got tons of scars from my previous relationships. And until I'm fully healed, I might never be able to date again. I used to think that I will never be able to heal from my first relationship, but lately, I'm starting to believe that it's possible. More possible than ever at least. Because I've managed to achieve closure last year. So hopefully, I'd be able to heal up some scars now that one wound is closed. It's definitely not going to be easy, but having come to terms with so much things have certainly made it a possible task. 

And I think that's basically it. You know what they say, you should never try to set too many goals. I think having two meaningful ones is good enough for me this year.